Melissa, DMV to Evanston
While I was gone, I did two things:
1. I matured.
2. I fell in love.
One of these things was much smarter than the other. And a few months ago, I was in complete bliss. Now? Not so much. I’ll also be the first to admit that the old Melissa would never write something this personal, or even admit to feelings, or be sappy, because I honestly hate sharing my feelings with the world. I can barely express them to my friends without becoming disgusted at myself.
And yet, here I am, mid-April, writing to tell you that falling for someone is one of the most ridiculous mindfucks I have ever experienced. I’ll also tell you that the person I spent the last few months slightly infatuated with is no longer a part of my life. Are we friends? Yes. Will we continue to be friends? Who fucking knows.
But enough about him.
Northwestern has changed me for the better. I am stronger, smarter, happier, and at home. I do feel alone, I guess I wish I had a little more support here. But I honestly don’t think I’d be happier anywhere else. The people here are amazing, Chicago is amazing, Medill is fucking amazing. I definitely made the right choice.
Another thing that I did? I finally saw Major Lazer/Diplo live. Now if you’ve been following me since the inception of this blog, if you follow me on Twitter, if you know me personally, or if you stalk me….you know how fuckin much I love Diplo. I can’t really explain why. Maybe it’s the talent, the raw passion he has. Maybe because he’s hysterical. Maybe because he produces music that he should be proud of and because he doesn’t give a fuck about what anyone thinks of him. Regardless of what it is, I finally saw the man do his thing live, and it was hella amazing. I even turned my damn roommate into a Major Lazer fan.
And now, I’m surviving my last quarter as a freshman in college. I have yet to figure out what I’m going to do this summer and that doesn’t really faze me. I just want to have a damn good time.
So here’s to Northwestern. And here’s to me returning to find peace. And hopefully for you, there won’t be any more of these long ass posts.
-Melissa.@1 month ago